And so it is.

A year from now, you will wish you have started today.
- Karen Lamb

Yesterday, I handed in my letter of resignation from my post as Customer Service & Sales Associate for HSBC Direct, effective 10 August 2012. The past five years and three months I have spent with my department in this company has been a great rewarding and learning experience for me so I am deeply saddened that it has now come to its end. I meant to stay for only six months and never really thought of making a career out of it --- I just wanted to work while I figure things out. After all, it is common for people in the call center industry to spend less than three years with one company before transferring to another. For someone to stay in the same department in one company for more than five years is already a feat in itself, based on the reaction of my new officemates after learning I have stayed this long. What can I say, I have been fortunate enough to work with the best teammates and bosses a girl fresh out of college could ask for that it took me a while to realize that hey, life's passing me by and I should get my act together if I really want to pursue my passions.

Scribbled in my planner.
It's the oldest story in the world. One day you're seventeen and planning for someday, and then quietly, without you ever really noticing, someday is today, and that someday is yesterday and this is your life.
- One Tree Hill

I once jokingly told my friends that *real* problems start surfacing upon reaching 25. One moment we were carefree, happy-go-lucky individuals, and then the next moment we find ourselves being forced to be more mature and mind grown-up things like taxes and thoughts of starting our own families. There is no other time but now. I don't want to wake up one day and find myself 31 years old, still answering phone calls and stopping cards. (Note: I have nothing against those who do, but it is really not something I envision myself doing for the rest of my yuppie life.)

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.
- Winnie the Pooh

I have been mulling on this big decision for quite a while now so I thought when the time comes I would be prepared for it, but when my officemates started saying they'll miss me my tear ducts just lost it and competed on who could produce the most tears. It will be really difficult to say goodbye to people who have become so dear to me but it's a tough choice I must make. The most important thing is that I will take nothing but great memories with me. After all, what is life but a series of hellos and goodbyes.

What I like most about change is that it's a synonym for 'hope'. If you are taking a risk, what you are really saying is, "I believe in tomorrow and I will be part of it."
- Linda Ellerbee

While writing my resignation letter, I suddenly felt nauseous. My heart started beating rapidly and didn't stop and kept on beating like that the rest of the day. I figured it wasn't ordinary palpitation brought by caffeine as I only had a cup of coffee in the morning, this was an anxiety attack. I would be lying if I told you I am not feeling batsh*t scared that things won't work out, but upon hearing encouraging (and even congratulatory) words from my friends after I shared with them the news, I felt much, much better. As they say, if you are not being challenged then you're not growing. I have been in this enormous comfort zone pool for as long as I can remember, and I guess it's time to rock the boat and live a little more.

What a wonderful thought it is that some of the best days of our lives haven't happened yet.

In the beginning of the year, Neil Gaiman said:
I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes. Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're Doing Something. So that's my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody's ever made before. Don't freeze, don't stop, don't worry that it isn't good enough, or it isn't perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life. Whatever it is you're scared of doing, Do it. Make your mistakes, next year and forever.
I hope this is one of the best mistakes I will ever make.

35 comments

Sonia said...

my best wishes to you, Krissy. I followed my heart once, career-wise, and I'll do the same thing again, if ever that chance came up once more. :-D 

ghoent said...

krissy! congraaaats!! i admire you for your courage to get out of your comfort zone. mahirap yun, it's always tempting to just go back.

embrace the change! i hope this one'll be a great next chapter! :)

Jonesalvarezcastro said...

we're on the same boat here Tetel. I want to chase my dreams now and not when I'm 30. We'll be making the best mistake together and hopefully one day, we can look back with no regrets.

Rose said...

I wish you the best, krissy. I know God has plans for you once you step out of your comfort zone to pursue greener pastures. God-willing, I hope I'll get to fulfill that real soon.

Abby said...

I have been thinking about the same thing! Goodluck to all of us who are trying to make sense of this world. :)

Megann Monday said...

Amazing post yet again, Krissy. You are so inspiring. And I love the Neil Gaiman quote you posted. I am so proud of you for finally deciding to take a stand and follow your passion. Keep inspiring. Hopefully, I will soon realize what I really want to do as well :)

♥ Megann of Style Surgery

Claire said...

Good luck Krissy! It's always scary to take risks and make mistakes but it's the only way we grow. :) I will look forward to your posts about your writing career!

Nashabella Hermosa said...

I support this leap of faith. All the best in your future endeavours!

Barbra Juliane Jaranilla said...

Good luck and all the best, Krissy! :)

Klaire Ellise said...

Good luck Ate Krissy! I wish you all the best and may you find true happiness in the next career that you will pursue. God bless :)

Arnie Villanueva said...

Another inspiring post from you! Haaay ♥ All the best for you, Krissy. You truly deserve it! I know you'll succeed in your chosen path. >:D<

krissy said...

Thank you Sonia, that's very comforting :)

krissy said...

Crossing my fingers for you, too!

krissy said...

Thank you Rose :)

krissy said...

Thank you Megann :)

krissy said...

Thank you Claire! I'm excited but also hella scared XD

krissy said...

Thank you Nashe! :)

krissy said...

Thanks Barbie! :)

krissy said...

Thank you Klaire, you're very sweet :)

krissy said...

Aww thanks Arnie :)

Rick said...

Congratulations Krissy!  You will do great and have many, many interesting experiences because of this change.

Dys Pacete said...

Goodluck on this next chapter of your life. God bless. :)

http://dyspacete.blogspot.com/ 

krissy said...

Thanks Rick! I'm very excited yet a little nervous as well.

krissy said...

Thanks Dys :)

Barbie said...

And I hope we can catch up soon! :D

Anagon Gonzales said...

As always, I am excited for you sis! :) I am sure you'll go a loooong way with all these "mistakes" you're not afraid of making. :) Nainspire ako, seriously, to move on na with my state right now. Alam mo naman na yun. :) Love you and can't wait to see you tomorrow!!! :)

AVA said...

aww so happy for your new job, krissy!!:) good luck with that!

krystal_pearl15 said...

Nice.. Happy for your decision! Good choice

krissy said...

Thank you :)

Riz said...

I can't remember how I got here, but I did, and this post reminded me of those days when bloggers blog what's in their hearts like no one's reading. Have you been around that long? :) Congratulations for taking that leap! :)

krissy said...

Thank you, Riz! And oh my gosh, I am a big fan of your blog and how you write that your comment really means a lot!

Riz said...

You are? Oh yay, can we be in a mutual admiration club or something? Coz I've been randomly hopping from one post of yours to another and I'm thinking, why haven't we been friends all this time? Lol. (May ganun.) That's short of saying, I'm happy I landed here and I'm about to subscribe now. :)

krissy said...

You're so sweet, y u making me cry? :,) Wow, mutual admiration club, I like that! And thank you! It always makes me feel happy when people appreciate the things I write :,)

Meliza said...

This post is very inspiring. Thank you. :)

krissy said...

Hi Meliza, you're welcome! I hope it was able to help you in some way. :)
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