2017: The Year of Embracing

31 December 2017

What a year, this year.

I had a hard time thinking of the perfect word that can encapsulate what 2017 meant to me, until this word popped in my mind.

2017 was wrought with a lot of challenges, and I just felt so exhausted all the time. I don't know if it was because of the hormones I took for my myoma, poor diet, lack of sleep, or maybe I'm just getting old and jaded. Still, I embraced every day and every experience.

According to Instagram, here are my 2017 posts that got the most likes:

Pretty in pink at the Barbie Loves Plains & Prints launch | Oxygen x Bieber | Personal post about my weight gain
Personal post about my myoma | My ban.do Agenda | A selfie I felt proud of after feeling depressed due to my hormones
The cheesiest line my boyfriend ever told me | Another portrait | In theme OOTD at the Penshoppe DNMLab DIY Bar event
Of everything that happened in this crazy year, here are the things that I embrace the most:

It was my third time in Singapore already but this trip was very special to me because it was the first time J and I traveled out of the country together. This photo was taken by my friend Ed during our first night there. They say you can only know a person thoroughly after you go to a foreign place with him/ her. Well, I'm glad to report we both had an awesome week at the Lion City!

This trip was made extra fun by our friends Ed, JV, Ronnie, and Kayle.

I love them.

My most vivid memory was bursting into tears and full-on sobbing after seeing the HUGE aquarium at the Singapore Zoo. J tried his best to console me to no avail, other park visitors must have thought we were fighting! I don't know what came into me, I was just too overcome with emotion!

Told ya, fun!

Not all heroes wear capes. Sometimes they sing and dance on stage and inspire you that if they can get through 2008 and look fabulous doing it, then you can get through anything. Britney Spears has been my personal hero since I was 12 years old and seeing her perform live is definitely one of my life's highlights.

From making sure I get a ticket to buying the perfect outfit to going to the concert alone, I embraced the entire experience and made my 12 year old-self proud.

This year is also the year I finally bit the bullet and started building my PANDORA charm bracelet, no thanks to an impulsive visit to the SM Aura store with my friend/ officemate Hannah.

I now have Jasmine's Signature Color Murano Glass Charm, Vintage K Charm (J's 2nd anniversary gift), Sun, Moon, and Stars Clip, and Globe Clip (in commemoration of my 5th anniversary with ARC Public Relations), and the other day I got the PavĂ© Wishing Star Charm from their Vertis North store. This way I’ll always have a wishing star anywhere I go. It’s also my good luck charm for the coming year.

Readers of this blog may notice a new section here --- Dollireum. It's where you can see my posts about my dolls, and I hope you don't get tired of the way I blabber about them. I started collecting again just this year and so far I have already amassed 27 dolls! That's three Monster High dolls, seven Ever After High dolls, and 17 Barbie dolls. Wew.

27! That's one more than the total number of dolls I had when I was little!

By the way, kudos to adult doll collectors especially those I follow on Instagram! (Follow my dolls' Instagram account, too, if you will be so inclined). It's not easy styling dolls' clothes and shoes, dressing them up, and posing them all for just one photo! It takes a lot of work and sometimes I get impatient, but then I look at them in their pretty clothes and everything's right with the [doll] world again.

In a bid to fully immerse myself in this, I also bought a sewing machine so I can make clothes not only for my dolls but also for myself. I am happiest when I make, and if I can make my own clothes and save a lot of money doing so then that would be great.

I didn't want to insert a somber tone in this post, but I guess if there's anything I learned this year, it's that we have to embrace every experience, even the bad. This year we found out I have myomas. We tried pills and injectables, and I even did keto, but sadly even though I lost a lot of weight in a short amount of time, the myomas only increased. We are now considering myomectomy and I am FREAKING SCARED. I can't even tell you how many times I cried to my boyfriend, to my parents, to my friends, to my boyfriend's mom, and to myself in private. I don't know what the future holds but I am praying that everything will be okay soon.

As always, I couldn't have done anything without my family.

They love and accept me unconditionally, and I am thankful. I know we can't choose the family we're born into but if I will be given the chance to choose, I will still choose them.

I am also very blessed to have an extended family through J. I don't know what I did to deserve their kindness and love, I'm just sitting here going, "happy, thank you, more please."

And to My Love, my one and only, I am so glad to end the year and welcome another one with you. My younger self used to dream of a love like this, and I wish I can tell her to just hang on, what they say is true: it will come when you least expect it. You came unexpectedly, and suddenly I was home.

I love you, J.

After going through old posts and photos to craft this year-ender, I am reminded that 2017 wasn't that bad, after all.

By the way! At the beginning of this year I swore that I will not buy a single tube of lipstick all year. It was VERY challenging but hey, what do you know, I SUCCEEDED! Now I'm already thinking which lipstick to get tomorrow as reward to myself. Kidding! Maybe.

Gracias and ciao, 2017.

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